class of 94-98 and beyond

who says friendship can't last forever?

i've known them since we're form 1...since our alma mater is a full boarding school,i literally grew up with them.man...look how all of us changed physically.but i still see in them the schoolmates that i once left behind after spm 1998.the whole lot of us went our own separate ways,pursuing our hopes and dreams.getting together once in a while is such a big occasion that almost all of us don't want to miss this opportunity.this pic was taken during a happy one,our dear ina's wedding.well,actually before her's,there's another one (awin's) took place at putrajaya.though the two weddings were at two different location and very far from each other...nobody complained.

so,to the two happy couples(ina&hubby,awin&hubby),here's to ur futures...cheers!!!

ichirin no hana - you, a lone flower

I can't tell if you're the same person i know,
but there could never be a replacement for you,
Don't ever wither,
you lone flower.
Bathing just perfectly in the light,almost as if you've blossomed from it.
all the emotions you've spread over the land...Let them out!
I can't tell if you're the same person i know,
but up till now, and from now on,
even if i made enemies with everyone other than you...
Even if that day came,i'll always protect you,
so do not lose,you lone flower.

it's raining

“The best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain.”


i love it when it's raining...maybe bcoz i'm born pisces.fish people juz loves water.
i captured this image yesterday.was in a bus,zooming thru the north-south highway towards penang.returning after a long and therapeutic break at home.
really love the scenery along the way.breath-taking...if i do the maths,i guess i've used few years of my life travelling this same road.never felt bored looking out of the window.give me time for self-reflection.
it's raining....sigh......

mY MaMoRi

Come Back DowN

Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide

All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you

I think it's time to just move on

by lifehouse.great band,great songs.dedicated for all the hopes i kept,for the love i have,for the relationships i cherished...

R.I.P. RT-PCR

i'm in lab.
doing RT-PCR.
i'm exasperated at my labmate.
need to do RNA extraction for another sample.
but...cannot find it.
my labmate kept the sample but i dunno where.
she could've put at the normal,designated place,
but nooooo....she must "hide" it at god-knows-where.
my work might stuck for the day.
hate it when this happens.
demmit..

lalalalazeeee

uneventful sunday...sumbody promised to take me out but have to cancel at last minute...huhuhu....
lazy to finish marking tutorial papers (biostatistic was my weakest subject during my undergrad year,and here i am tutoring dat class...sigh....)
lazy to leave room...today's so cold and cloudy.have to drag myself out of room...
well,here's to a lazy sunday.
welcome crazy moday...

ok owh...

i know i'm a bit behind of time...desperate housewives is olredi in it's 2nd season,and i just only discovered why my friends really,really liked it.and why it had won many,many awards...
it all begins...when i have to stay back in lab and was getting fed up wif the work i'm doing.suddenly i was thinking "hey,emi(my friend in another lab)has the whole season 1 of desperate housewives in her hardisk.why not i juz download it to my lab's pc and kill time watching it." 1st thing u have to know is actually i'm not into this kind of drama series.Lost,CSI,NCIS are more my kind of thing.when the 1st episode finished it doesn't take me 3 secs to click the next episode.then the next one,then another...the next thing i know,i've already watched 16 episodes straight.non-stop.isk,isk,isk...
so now,i'm hopelessly,slowly and surely becoming a fan of desperate housewives.desperately waiting for the next episode....
...oh,no.....

quotes quota

-sensible nonsense...

"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?” ~Lewis Carrol

-do u want to know what i said or what i'm trying to say??

"I tell you everything that is really nothing, and nothing of what is everything, do not be fooled by what I am saying. Please listen carefully and try to hear what I am not saying." ~Charles C. Finn

"When I use a word," Humpty Dumpty said, in a rather scornful tone, "it means just what I choose it to mean - neither more nor less."
"The question is," said Alice, "whether you can make words mean so many different things."
~Through the Looking Glass

LeT mE ResT in Pieces

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
you look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I’m in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

-song by Saliva.this song caught my attention in the car juz now...depressing song actually but i sorta like it....

a quarter of a century

hey,hey....it's my birthday today...am olredi 25 years old,a quarter of a century,2 decades and a half...

do i feel old?nope.(must be coz my labmates all are older than me...i'm the "youngest" in lab and may i add,cutest too..hehe).i view every birthday as a happy celebration.i don't get it why people think birthday sux...must be they're not content wif their life.who cares if u get older?i think of it as getting more seasoned...

by d way,my beloved labmates throw a surprise party for me today wif the hanyir team in tow ....
wow...wow...woooow.....
rendered speechless for a few minutes...i know dat they're up to sumthing since morning.(guys,if u wanna tipu me next time act a bit naturally lah...pretending u forget altogether my birthday is not one of the "natural acts" tau...)but i didn't expect them to go the extra mile wif the preparations.really,really touched...those who don't like birthdays sure don't have labmates like mine.to MoZF,kryptiq,vani,pirate,amdist,helleri and apek...kau memang da bomb!!! (^_^)

oh,and also lots of thanx to dear frenz far and near who send birthday wishes thru sms,mails and calls...to "abang" C.W who's sharing the same birthday date as mine(i'm sure he might never read this)...happy birthday to us!!hope our wishes come true...

so,a birthday has passed and future looms ahead...bring it on....

mmmhmmm...

-petrol price increased 30 cents...alamak,must start to restrict my car's "social" activities la like this....isk.....

-got friends complaining dat i purposely dun wan to look them up whenever i'm back in my hometown klang...
not purposely lah friend...nowadays,i rarely got leave from work.so,whenever i have the chance to balik kampung,i juz wan to stay at home and hang out wif my parents n siblings(n streamyx,n tv,n my own bed)...people do tend to think dat doing masters is so damn easy (ala...like undergraduate years.juz go attend classes n lecturers won't bother u if u skip classes.n wat's this about master students juz sit quietly in lab???)..hello?...u try and take my place for juz one day.see how easy u said washing tanks,feeding fishies,check every fish see got sick or not,treat their sickness...etc.,etc.it really makes me MAD when they said my work is damn senang...GRRR!!!

-doing good progress on work...hope my boss's happy when i report to him later...but i still have this nagging feeling dat i forget to do sumthing he wants...isk.....

disturbingly peaceful

it's too damn peaceful around here...only a handful of us are available...the earth movers and shakers were either went cuti-cuti,start working full-time,went away for official bussiness for our bosses,lazy to come to lab (if suddenly remembers to come lab also will go back so fast u tak sempat blink ur eyes),missing in action or simply cannot be located (i juz love this phrase).
hmmm.....where's the havoc when u need one?

playing games

i dunno where i stand in his heart.
i dunno where he stands in mine.
i dunno whether the things he did was a sign of affection or juz as a friend.
i dunno that when my phone rings, i secretly hoped it was him.
i dunno what i did to make him smile that loving smile of his.
i dunno why i tried to hurt him,when he was there for me.
i dunno why he tried to push me away,when i was there for him.

FriendShiP

we're friends,i will protect you like you protect me...thanks...