i'm really

a dishonest, terrible person.

and i'll probably still live life disliking myself after what i've done. 

Although it's not a particularly great way of living; there are times when i feel that i'm truly lucky that i've met you.

i know i'm really not the person to say this but...

Please, find your happiness.

~words from FUMI-san~

suki ja nai!

my boss played a prank on me last night. 

my blood can not decide whether to boil or freeze over.

!!!

life moves on for everyone still living.

happy belated birthday to ah seng and Novi. lazy to whip something out from the creative hat. so here's a shoutout to both of you. 

"You're OLD already!!" teehee...

by the way, on a totally unrelated note to a friend. ever heard of the malay saying "kalau takde penyakit, jangan carik penyakit"?? what you're doing now *points at what friend is doing* IS a perfect example of that. just don't drag me down with you. coz i'm too busy to save your ass. 

okay?

dislike doesn't mean hate. does it?

after being demoralized and demotivated by you, please excuse me if what i can only offer is a fake smile.

i need to get myself through this.  *facepalm*

Insert angsty title here

I would like to tell him this.

"Please do not pressure me. And talk to me only and only if it's really fucken important. Like, end of the world important."

But. I. can't.

*slinks to a corner and put head between knees*

almost there

"Your manuscript has been found to be acceptable for publishing if formally revised as indicated in Editorial recommendations provided beneath..."

sila beri saya tunjuk ajar.

gambatte rerama!!!

group hug everyone!

this is for keith and my dearest sistah. 

you. viva. finished. 

YAY! YAY! YAY!!!

What if i wanted to break?

You want me to conform to your ideals. So what if i'm not as nice as you, not as friendly as you, not as loyal as you? i need none of your concerns.

Being impulsive is wrong? i beg to differ. I'm having much more fun with my life than you.

Speaking of which, life doesn't come with instruction manuals. But surely if it does, i'm going to choose something entirely different than yours.

And unlike you, when all that i have done is to make myself happier...

Do you still think less of me?

hey CHIP...

*hope you have a happy, happy day dear. (^_^)

please be quiet for a while...

i'm attempting to reminisce.

to preserve their beauty, it's best to keep memories in the past.

or so they say. 

 damn,i was so painfully young back then.

 *the muse recommends readers to ignore rerama's disjointed thoughts.

sigh~*

~e to...

Have a Raya cookie luv...

My dear undergrads,

you. don't worry about the molecular analysis. it's MY problem. not yours.

you. focus on your project. why do you like to ask irrelevant questions?! wait. don't answer that. i forgot that i don't wanna know.

and two of you. i clearly stated in sms and emails (note that it is in plural) to increase the sample weight to 2 grams. NOT 0.2 grams. please don't make me repeat myself again. i might have to hurt both of you.

finally, don't run off and complain about your woes to the boss. boss will find me and complain about you to me. i do not need his help to destroy whatever patience i have left for all of you.

Sincerely,

Me.

i really was and am still busy

submitted a manuscript for publication. AT LAST!

i'll pimp it here whenever it's published in the near future.

manning the MAHA booth for 2 weeks last august. it was...fun? *grins*

today

today i'm going to be witty and charming.

...

.....

but, maybe i'm just gonna say "uh" a lot and trip over words. *sweatdrops*