i'd like to confess that i cried the other day.
and my heart had been lighter.
i'm learned (and still learning) that trust is such a fragile thing. you thought people trust you and you thought you trust them, but it turns out that i've been living in an imaginary world of my own. note to self: never get too attached to people in future.
another lesson that i've learned was comfort and understanding can be found from those you least expected it from. when i was flailing, they offered them without me asking for it and without fuss. and those i expected it from, let's just say it took me a nanosecond to realize that i'm not getting any. makes me wonder, who's who and what's what. again, it's my imaginary world i left, all suitcases packed and with a one-way ticket out, to realize it.
"i hate crying. it's just a waste of tears." ~sob~
"i know."
"crying is so tiring." ~sob~
"i know."
~sob~
"....."
"could you please not tell anyone that i cried today?"
"when did you cry?"
~sniffles~ "thanks."
with this kind of drama in my life, who says i need tv? ~self-ironic bemusement~
and my heart had been lighter.
i'm learned (and still learning) that trust is such a fragile thing. you thought people trust you and you thought you trust them, but it turns out that i've been living in an imaginary world of my own. note to self: never get too attached to people in future.
another lesson that i've learned was comfort and understanding can be found from those you least expected it from. when i was flailing, they offered them without me asking for it and without fuss. and those i expected it from, let's just say it took me a nanosecond to realize that i'm not getting any. makes me wonder, who's who and what's what. again, it's my imaginary world i left, all suitcases packed and with a one-way ticket out, to realize it.
"i hate crying. it's just a waste of tears." ~sob~"i know."
"crying is so tiring." ~sob~
"i know."
~sob~
"....."
"could you please not tell anyone that i cried today?"
"when did you cry?"
~sniffles~ "thanks."
with this kind of drama in my life, who says i need tv? ~self-ironic bemusement~
3 comments:
hey, read my forgive & forget back, ok! ;p
i still stand on my ditziness to forget but not forgive.
and sayang...there's no medical condition called "dowry syndrome".trust me on this. (^_~)
eh, xde ke? ye ke xde? apsal aku ade? ahakzx!
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