demi waktu

Ku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
Yang kini hadir di antara kita
Namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
Yang slama ini temani hidupku

Maafkan aku…Menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku..Tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu..Yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkanlah diriku..Sepenuh hatimu
Seandainya bila..Ku bisa memilih

Kalau saja waktu itu Ku tak jumpa dirinya
Mungkin semua takkan seperti ini
Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
Membawa aku dalam kehancuran

haven't tuned into the local airwaves for quite some time.too much lousy songs and hiphop.especially hiphop songs...IF u could call them songs...(no offence here...each woman to her own music preference right?)..by d way,this song by indonesian band ungu was brought to my attention yesterday by a friend...1st impression:nice.i have this bad habit of thinking that indonesians produce better songs than malaysians...ahaha...well,guess my preferences ran that way.

anyway,what happened was i heard this song last night okay,and when i started my car this morning (i also have this bad habit of not switching off all buttons and switches in my car,be it for air-con or radio)the song was playing again,as if it was a continuation from last night...then again in the afternoon..then heard it again at night...until i can't stand it and have to switch it off (this is from a person who let a cd play continuously for one week b4 she had a realization to change it).it's true that you can have too much of a good thing.maybe bcoz it's such a favourite that the djs played it on demand...but that's why people like me burn their own cds.guess,it's better that way...the radio stations have less one person to b!tch bout their music choices...

haha...who am i to complaint?i'm juz a craZY scientist who appreciates things with my own interpretation of GOOD,at least by 95% of my confidence level..heh...

mY gReen PeT

(^_^) had a new addition in my room.a cute creeper plant shaped like a heart in a cute hanging pot shaped like a shell.saw it at a morning market last sunday and it was love at first sight.i pride myself as a choosy buyer,juz ask my frenz who had to follow me around shopping malls.but for this paricular plant,i didn't even hestitate.it's sooOOoo cute...i had some series of unfortunate events regarding plants that i adopt.hopefully this one will survive longer...

laetor letor

"sun's bursting in through the drapes,
I awake as a new day starts
Feeling I am clear in my mind I´m alive, I´m in love
Feel it in my heart
The day opens up on the world like a dream
And I start to smile..."
-Amy Diamond "Shooting Star"-

today's a good day...things are looking up for me.surely i will sleep smiling tonite... (^_^)

Bad Karma Hypothesis

continuation from http://hanyir.blogspot.com/2006/05/bad-karma-hypothesis.html
damn...my karma is getting from bad to worse...

this morning,my supervisor questioned the validity of the housekeeping gene i'm using for my research.
then i found out that my rna extraction was not good in the 1st place.(the ignorant me dunno bout rna/contaminants ratio since i'm so stupid dat ppl dun think it's worth to inform me).
then...he waved his hand and i found myself back in square one.start from scratch.from bottom shit.have to redo everything.
it's not like it's the end of the world for me...i know i can manage it.strangely i'm not even upset at him.i'm upset bout the outside factors.
OF1:
there shud be a limit of putting salt on a freshly,bleeding wound no?i can still stand the pain if u put a teaspoon of salt on mine...but pouring the whole sack?
OF2:
there shud be a limit for a slow,non-responsive human...in the 1st place you r a human right?where's ur emotion??can't u realize ur own research in jeopardy???shud u let ppl carry u around like dead weight on their backs?
OF3:
empty threats doesn't scare me...it makes me madder.
OF4:
would u go to a zoo,purposely climb over the fence,and poke an angry tiger??nak mati ke?

sigh.....plz god.plz give me strength to not explode.....

class of 94-98 and beyond

who says friendship can't last forever?

i've known them since we're form 1...since our alma mater is a full boarding school,i literally grew up with them.man...look how all of us changed physically.but i still see in them the schoolmates that i once left behind after spm 1998.the whole lot of us went our own separate ways,pursuing our hopes and dreams.getting together once in a while is such a big occasion that almost all of us don't want to miss this opportunity.this pic was taken during a happy one,our dear ina's wedding.well,actually before her's,there's another one (awin's) took place at putrajaya.though the two weddings were at two different location and very far from each other...nobody complained.

so,to the two happy couples(ina&hubby,awin&hubby),here's to ur futures...cheers!!!

ichirin no hana - you, a lone flower

I can't tell if you're the same person i know,
but there could never be a replacement for you,
Don't ever wither,
you lone flower.
Bathing just perfectly in the light,almost as if you've blossomed from it.
all the emotions you've spread over the land...Let them out!
I can't tell if you're the same person i know,
but up till now, and from now on,
even if i made enemies with everyone other than you...
Even if that day came,i'll always protect you,
so do not lose,you lone flower.

it's raining

“The best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain.”


i love it when it's raining...maybe bcoz i'm born pisces.fish people juz loves water.
i captured this image yesterday.was in a bus,zooming thru the north-south highway towards penang.returning after a long and therapeutic break at home.
really love the scenery along the way.breath-taking...if i do the maths,i guess i've used few years of my life travelling this same road.never felt bored looking out of the window.give me time for self-reflection.
it's raining....sigh......

mY MaMoRi

Come Back DowN

Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide

All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you

I think it's time to just move on

by lifehouse.great band,great songs.dedicated for all the hopes i kept,for the love i have,for the relationships i cherished...

R.I.P. RT-PCR

i'm in lab.
doing RT-PCR.
i'm exasperated at my labmate.
need to do RNA extraction for another sample.
but...cannot find it.
my labmate kept the sample but i dunno where.
she could've put at the normal,designated place,
but nooooo....she must "hide" it at god-knows-where.
my work might stuck for the day.
hate it when this happens.
demmit..

lalalalazeeee

uneventful sunday...sumbody promised to take me out but have to cancel at last minute...huhuhu....
lazy to finish marking tutorial papers (biostatistic was my weakest subject during my undergrad year,and here i am tutoring dat class...sigh....)
lazy to leave room...today's so cold and cloudy.have to drag myself out of room...
well,here's to a lazy sunday.
welcome crazy moday...

ok owh...

i know i'm a bit behind of time...desperate housewives is olredi in it's 2nd season,and i just only discovered why my friends really,really liked it.and why it had won many,many awards...
it all begins...when i have to stay back in lab and was getting fed up wif the work i'm doing.suddenly i was thinking "hey,emi(my friend in another lab)has the whole season 1 of desperate housewives in her hardisk.why not i juz download it to my lab's pc and kill time watching it." 1st thing u have to know is actually i'm not into this kind of drama series.Lost,CSI,NCIS are more my kind of thing.when the 1st episode finished it doesn't take me 3 secs to click the next episode.then the next one,then another...the next thing i know,i've already watched 16 episodes straight.non-stop.isk,isk,isk...
so now,i'm hopelessly,slowly and surely becoming a fan of desperate housewives.desperately waiting for the next episode....
...oh,no.....

quotes quota

-sensible nonsense...

"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?” ~Lewis Carrol

-do u want to know what i said or what i'm trying to say??

"I tell you everything that is really nothing, and nothing of what is everything, do not be fooled by what I am saying. Please listen carefully and try to hear what I am not saying." ~Charles C. Finn

"When I use a word," Humpty Dumpty said, in a rather scornful tone, "it means just what I choose it to mean - neither more nor less."
"The question is," said Alice, "whether you can make words mean so many different things."
~Through the Looking Glass

LeT mE ResT in Pieces

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
you look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I’m in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

-song by Saliva.this song caught my attention in the car juz now...depressing song actually but i sorta like it....

a quarter of a century

hey,hey....it's my birthday today...am olredi 25 years old,a quarter of a century,2 decades and a half...

do i feel old?nope.(must be coz my labmates all are older than me...i'm the "youngest" in lab and may i add,cutest too..hehe).i view every birthday as a happy celebration.i don't get it why people think birthday sux...must be they're not content wif their life.who cares if u get older?i think of it as getting more seasoned...

by d way,my beloved labmates throw a surprise party for me today wif the hanyir team in tow ....
wow...wow...woooow.....
rendered speechless for a few minutes...i know dat they're up to sumthing since morning.(guys,if u wanna tipu me next time act a bit naturally lah...pretending u forget altogether my birthday is not one of the "natural acts" tau...)but i didn't expect them to go the extra mile wif the preparations.really,really touched...those who don't like birthdays sure don't have labmates like mine.to MoZF,kryptiq,vani,pirate,amdist,helleri and apek...kau memang da bomb!!! (^_^)

oh,and also lots of thanx to dear frenz far and near who send birthday wishes thru sms,mails and calls...to "abang" C.W who's sharing the same birthday date as mine(i'm sure he might never read this)...happy birthday to us!!hope our wishes come true...

so,a birthday has passed and future looms ahead...bring it on....