menunggu pagi....

"apa yg terjadi
dengan hatiku
ku masih di sini
menunggu pagi

seakan letih
tak menggangguku
ku masih terjaga
menunggu pagi

Entah kapan waktu berhenti
Teman aku masih menunggu pagi..."

a close friend sent me this song yesterday.i called him a melancholy-aholic...

mel·an·chol·y (mĕl'ən-kŏl'ē) pronunciation
n.
1. Sadness or depression of the spirits; gloom: “There is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the grass” (Charles Kuralt).
2. Pensive reflection or contemplation.

thanx ya.i really,really hope he'll be able to sort his problem of the heart...i can alwiz lend u my ears,juz ignore watever expression i'm wearing...it doesn't matter actually...u'r my friend and i'm there for u.

back 2 da song....sigh....so jiwang.....i could juz drool hearing ariel's vocal from group Peter Pan...

anyone wif dat kind of voice available???

my bones are disintegrating....

had a not-so-small gathering last night at home...mom,sis n me cooked since morning..and afterwards all 4 of us siblings had to clean up and wash dishes and glasses and pots and bowls and spoons and trays...my back and legs are aching like hell today...really,really felt that age has caught up with me....and this morning when i woke up,hands and feet felt like lead.....adeih.....
note to self:drink a lot of anlene.....

relaxing....

-i'm at home....
-i've got everything i need for my total relaxation....pc,streamyx,big screen TV,dvd player,astro.....my home is heaven.....
-4 days leave (without my boss knowing..harharhar.)wat the heck....i'll juz wait till he send bombs inside my email then i'll panic....
-looking up old friends is alwiz a good therapy for the soul...talked to few of my oldest n closest mates today and it work wonders for me...good friends are hard to get,once u found them,never ever let them go....
-oh,i went out wif my sis n her "special friend" today...wat a gentleman!high points for him....if he bcomes my future bro-in-law,i'll try not to piss him off (not that often)...hehehehe.....

Jingle BeLLs....

i've juz returned from kryptiq's christmas lunch with fini,MOZF,pirate.thanx kryptiq and her mum n sis for the delicious lunch...not to forget,the out-of-this-world desserts...yummy yum....but cannot eat it too much la....my body cannot accept too much cheesecake.then i'll go blur.....
by d way,my family's in penang!!!got a bit celebrating to do...not christmas la but my older sis's birthday and also my youngest sis 8A's in her PMR.guess stop here coz,sis's olredi called and ask to meet them...okaylah...ciao...

Huh???

yesterday,friday(every friday actually),all post-graduates have to attend this seminar session where one M.sc or Ph.D student will present their research...i guess it's something like a mock viva (presentation) to prepare us.all this time i have alwiz thought that my lab's research is not on par with other labs....(well....i mean how can u explain their know-it-all faces and stuck-up noses??)..then when this Ph.D student presented her research,it come as quite a shock to know that what my lab is doing is way much better than theirs'...way,way much better....so,i guess i shouldn't have that bad feeling when they look down on my lab coz i know that most of them is all talk...have pride on my research and myself....hmmm.......wondering if they know that they shouldn't look down on others coz in reality people are looking down on them...

Penat lah

got a lot of things going on this weekend...MOU signing between my school with nagasaki university,have to give talk in fish seminar,tomorrow morning got to show how the fish breed to the participants summore....on top of this,my work still not yet finish.sigh.....very damn tired lor.....

sLaving aWaY...

it's nearly 12 midnite....and i'm still working in lab...coupla labmates accompanying me.deadlines and deathsentences hovering over everibody's heads nowadays.a lot of things kinda happen at one time so,as usual my blurness is overtaking my sanity.have to work 24/7 la..physically tired during day (with the fishouse needs to be upgraded by friday) and oso mentally tired by night (hey,this is the only time i can sit and read!!). i think,sleep,dream with fishy informations in my mind...bo ko leng....

a pleasure forgotten

i once like to write...
expressing myself in words and letters is a pleasure to me.dunno when or why i stopped...i remembered last time during my boarding school years,i alwiz exchange personal messages to my best friend (and this is to a person that i see and talked to everyday.summore her class was 2 doors away).guess,writing down ur feelings and saying them out loud has different intimacy level kot....close frenz alwiz tell me dat i'm the kind of person who don't put much thought to what she says (other words,alwiz blur-blur lah...dunno wat ppl ask me also i can answer them..haha...)with written words,i put effort in making ppl understanding what i want 2 tell them.
right now,with my life heading towards nowhere at 120km/hr,feels like i have to find R&R to stop.lepak-lepak for a while and do something that once brings joy to me...