i love kids, but i'm glad i don't have any...yet

went out for dinner with my married friends two days ago. we've known each other since our freshman year. one couple is expecting while the other already has a toddler.

the kid had been sleeping but mom and dad had to wake her up because obviously they're not going to leave their child alone in the car. you know how cranky a kid can be when they're disturbed from their sleep. she was wailing and sobbing in the restaurant. and wailing and kicking. and wailing and sobbing. nothing her parents did were able to soothe her until dad brought her back to the car.

i'm not sure what kind of expression i had on my face during the ruckus but the other husband remarked on it.

"i think i know what you're thinking."
"wuh?"
"it's 'i'm so not going to have any kid soon', am i right?"

BINGO.

damn, i'm so transparent.

:wibbles:

my muse was last seen eating calamares frito with a witch and an angel. whereabouts currently unknown. if found, please tell her i need her to come back so that i can write coherently.

okay. i'm hopelessly addicted to this AU series on my fave fandom. it had me at the 1st sentence. these few days, my mind wanders off to spain whenever i'm idle.

cursed tags. neo-pagan rites. hot white linen pants. *guh* worried!robin and lost!angel were so heartbreakingly sweet, i wish i could give them a hug.

oh, the angst! oh, the crack! i love you ladies for the story you weave.

so actually, i don't have anything useful to post.

i need to find myself a life.

nice comeback

me: unfortunately, i don't have any questions for you. would you like me to cook up something?
you: cook what? pasta of denial? or carbonara with white lies sauce?

oh, wow. that's one of the reasons i adore being friends with you. you just know how to play with words.

and i almost always lost in our verbal duels...almost. (^_^)

what do you mean?

i really wanted to ask. but the words were so huge they stuck halfway in my throat. i had no choice but to swallow it all down before i choke myself.

because, i'm afraid of whatever answer i might hear from you.

for %@#!'s sake

my new motto: i don't know and i don't care anymore.

if i said it like this, you won't believe me.
if i said it like that, you won't believe me too.
if i didn't say anything, you'll still get mad at me.

the last straw was when i was told that i have so much free time in my hands. uh, hello? i've been slaving my ass away and you said that i didn't do anything?

that's it. i'm going shopping so that when i'm accused of doing nothing, at least i can feel guilty instead of angry.

UWAAARGH!!!
i must've been a car in my previous life because everybody's driving me mad!!!

from the puddle on the floor that is my brain

*headdesk*

lack of sleep did a number on my cerebral cortex.

i don't mean to think out loud like that. no boss, what i meant was i'm going to do the 1st part today as in doing the 2nd part of sampling tomorrow. not do ALL tomorrow. that will not bode well with your sense of schedule.

drinking Ribena and eating M&M's on an empty stomach is a big no-no. the sugar rush prompted comments like "you look high" and "somebody hide her Ribena, she's drunk".

it's 2.45am already? it feels like it's still...u~mm....yesterday?...confused.

*ikanrerama slapped herself awake*

wherein my world did a 180 degree flip and realligned itself to the sun and moon.

i'll see your heart and i'll raise you mine

-Bell X1-

What's with the angel
and what's with the devil
They keep swapping shoulders
and I can't tell which from which
"Will you be my Kriskindle?
Will you be my better nature?"
says one to the other
But I think they're only showing off

I caught them play poker
and I think it was the devil who said
"I'll see your heart
and I'll raise you mine"

Yea, they keep swapping shoulders
I think there's something going on
"Will you be my sweet pea?
Will you be the card up my sleeve?"
says one to the other
and this time they hold their gaze
for too long

Now they're playing poker
and this time it's the angel who says
"I'll see your heart
and I'll raise you mine"

This is the story of the angel
who played poker with the devil
in the Garden of Eden
before it all went pear shaped

They said
"I'll see your heart
and I'll raise you mine"

Ritter Sport Fine Extra Dark Chocolate, with 71% cocoa....yummy.

it's semantics

there's difference between "i can" and "i want to".

e.g;
i can help you, but i don't want to.
i want to help, but i can't.

and my sentence of the day coming from miss peachy.

"i can spend my life without you, but i don't want to."

awww....you're soOOooo sweet...manuel is one helluva lucky guy.

i think i had a toothache.

squee!!!

this is why kubo tite moved into my heart and could never leave. (*_*)

wasted tears

i'd like to confess that i cried the other day.
and my heart had been lighter.

i'm learned (and still learning) that trust is such a fragile thing. you thought people trust you and you thought you trust them, but it turns out that i've been living in an imaginary world of my own. note to self: never get too attached to people in future.

another lesson that i've learned was comfort and understanding can be found from those you least expected it from. when i was flailing, they offered them without me asking for it and without fuss. and those i expected it from, let's just say it took me a nanosecond to realize that i'm not getting any. makes me wonder, who's who and what's what. again, it's my imaginary world i left, all suitcases packed and with a one-way ticket out, to realize it.

"i hate crying. it's just a waste of tears." ~sob~
"i know."
"crying is so tiring." ~sob~
"i know."
~sob~
"....."
"could you please not tell anyone that i cried today?"
"when did you cry?"
~sniffles~ "thanks."


with this kind of drama in my life, who says i need tv? ~self-ironic bemusement~

i'm nearby

my warm breath fogged my glasses as i blew at my hands.
as my bare toes tapped the puddle of water near my feet.
i could freeze to death in this cold, rainy weather to keep you company,
and be perfectly happy.

u~mm... yay?

my supervisor and i. we had this particularly long discussion the other day. during which he was worried over a factor that might negatively affect my experiment results. i pointed out the obvious and actually solved the problem.

he looked straight at me and said thoughtfully, "hmm, you're smarter now."

the nearest to a compliment i've ever received from him.

the Raya post that almost got away

ah, yes... it's raya.

.abah ku yang retro di pagi raya.

.ummi ku yang evergreen.

wishing all readers a happy one. i had.
albeit too short.

but hey, who's complaining?

ho-- boy...

~fans self~ he's so hawt, i could've melted.

"you're wearing new spectacles?"

"yep,just bought it yesterday."

"multi-coated?"

"yep."

"how much?"

"around rm300."

"i see. and the lenses they're tinted blue?"

"yep."

"hmm~...blue."

"?"

" my new favourite colour."

Mahalnya perkataan II

ayat-ayat yg keluar dr mulut awak buat saya terawang kat udara jer.
sampaikan saya terpaksa tengok bawah, check kaki saya jejak tanah ke tak. (^_^)